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About Cynthia Doll

Living in the woods of Northwest Montana I have plenty of inspiration for my stories. When I'm not writing I'm hiking with my four-legged kids, Cooper and Sara. Or I might be kayaking one of the many small lakes, or the big lake, the Flathead. And there's always yard work living in the trees. And I have a job, of course, but I'm lucky and get to work at home. It's taken me a long time to get to "my place" here in the woods, and I'm grateful for every needle I have to rake, every weed that needs pulled, and every deck that needs shoveled through the long winters - all of those chores giving me thinking time for my next story!

PIE for Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is just a few days away. The weather confirms it, as do the grocery stores and radio ads. Wet cold days spent inside make it the appropriate time for reflection, to look back or ahead, to be totally present in the moment, and to give thanks in all things.

My sister, Lynne, and I email back and forth on the days our work shifts over lap. We are not texters, Heavens no, but have developed a number of our own acronyms for comments or phrases that seem to work themselves in our conversations regularly, so we’ve made our own shortcuts for time saving. We have OOTROW, which can be a good thing or a bad thing – out of the realm of words! It’s for something that happens or an emotional response that the English language just has no words to describe. This happens surprisingly often! We also use SNWI. This applies to a new ice cream flavor or a movie we took our time and money to see – so not worth it!!!

Two of my favorites are IAR, it’s all relative, and PIE, perspective is everything. Lynne and I use these often as reminders, in reference to work, relationships, finances, or how we spent the weekend. We don’t tolerate much whining. We are blessed in countless ways. Though there’s always something we’d like to be different or better, or one more thing we’d like to possess, we are lacking nothing! Almost more important than being thankful for the blessings in our lives, is support, prayers and anything else we can give to those who are not as well off, financially, emotionally, or health wise. Many people in the east won’t be spending this holiday in their home because it’s gone. Many kids won’t be getting the dozen toys they want because their parents can’t find jobs. Not everyone will spend time with their entire family, as one may be overseas in the service or sick in a hospital.

Right now I’m sitting by my nice warm fire. I whine plenty about using my free time to cut firewood, that I get sore and tired and filthy from doing it. But how lucky am I that I’m able to do it! In a place that I love! Is it hard spending an afternoon in the woods with the fresh smell of cut pine, listening to Stellar jays chat in the tree tops? Hardly! Do I love my little wood stove radiating free heat? Absolutely! So once again I remind myself that perspective is everything. Wishing you some PIE thoughts for your holiday, along with warmth, happiness, and full tummies. Cindy

Obsession in the Woods

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It fools us every year, though we know by November 1 winter can arrive in earnest. After a couple of days of light snow and chilly rain in October, I was back to sleeping with the windows open, more chances to hear the coyotes singing at night. I was lulled momentarily into Fall mode again, but, quick as an arctic blast, the weather has turned. Several days a week I still run the dogs, but with temps in the 20s there is no lingering at a bench with my pad. Now writing takes place near the wood stove. During colder days the stove is a voracious resident. At the start of wood stove season, I think it’s a good time to share with you one of my earliest published essays. It appeared in both Montana Woman and Country Woman magazines:
  
I have collected many things in my life, everything from salt and pepper shakers and teddy bears to old perfume bottles. Now I collect firewood. I had no idea what installing a woodstove would do to my life.
I thought a woodstove was a good alternative to electric heat and the rising cost of fuel. I have wood on my property – lots of wood that is dead or needs thinned – and I was anxious to get out there and clean it up and save some money. I bought a chain saw. I bought heavy boots. I went out and started cutting and found it was addicting. Then I noticed it creeping into other aspects of my life.
This spring a friend, Suzanne, and I walked our dogs in the woods – so much to see and explore. We’d take picnics and sit by lakes and creeks and absorb the beauty of the mountains. The dogs would play and wear themselves out, always with energy for one more turn in the road, one more squirrel that needed chasing. Spring is an awesome time to be in the woods – wildflowers and fresh streams and trees greening up – and we ventured out as often as we could. Slowly I began to realize, though, that I was not looking at the scenery anymore. I was looking down, at slash piles and logs on the sides of the road. I’d see piles of wood and fret that it was too far to carry back to the truck. I wanted to stay on roads now that we could drive on – not wanting to park and go walking down quiet, narrow paths. I would ask Suzanne if she wouldn’t mind carrying an armload of wood on the way back to the truck. Going down the highway I’d find myself stopping for some piece of potential firewood in a ditch.
At home I noticed my driveway was getting crowded. There were piles of wood everywhere – each one representing a foray into the woods or a visit to a neighbor’s house who had just cleared out some trees. A stranger stopped by one day after seeing my woodpile, figured I was an avid collector, and wondered if I was interested in more. He had plenty and would just have to take it to the dump; he would be glad to bring it by. In town I ran into a neighbor I hardly knew who had heard from another neighbor that I was interested in wood – he had some if I would like it. I was always glad for more wood.
Every morning before work I chopped a wheelbarrow full and wheeled it up to the house. I piled it in neat stacks, feeling rich, all this fuel I was amassing. It was a woodsy thing to do, and I loved the thought of a big woodpile. I loved the muscles I was building, too, and how good it felt to swing the ax, hammer the maul, and see results. Neighbors commented on how strong I must be, how self-reliant. I was proud. Each day the pile by the house grew taller; then it started to lean. I came around the east side of the house one day and a whole section had fallen over. As I carefully stacked it again I had to reconsider the management of my wood wealth so it didn’t tumble down on my dog or me.
In the meantime, the pile in my driveway kept getting bigger. I just couldn’t say no when more was offered. I had nice big chunks from a neighbor who had larches – larch is good stuff; I couldn’t turn it down. A long-dead aspen fell over the trail at the lake – someone called to see if I would like to come get it, and I went right over.
Then it snowed one late spring day – all my wood was so lovely in the snow, a backwoods postcard. I skipped a day or so of chopping wood then, and pretty soon more days. It wasn’t long before summer came, those first days of real warmth, and pretty soon I wasn’t chopping my wheelbarrow of wood every morning. With summer comes other chores, hard, time-consuming chores, and it’s hot. I was ignoring my woodpile, and before long I hardly noticed it anymore. I had all summer to chop wood. I had lots of time.
As Montana summers go, it was over before I knew it. The stacks in the driveway had not gone away. As my obsession became obvious even to me, I finally started turning down offers of wood – no more wood this year – I had run out of room. I had neglected my muscles, too, and fall was coming fast; I would never get all that wood chopped. Now neighbors were wondering what I intended to do with my wood collection. Snow would be coming soon and I was not ready. Someone mentioned a log splitter – something I was not aware of. My obsession had gotten bigger than I was, I had to admit defeat, and so a rented log splitter was towed home.
Log splitters are amazing, noisy, very effective machines, and it wasn’t long before neighbors came to see what was happening in my driveway. A log splitter is also a man’s toy, and soon I had 3 men happily splitting and stacking wood, taking turns with the levers, adjusting the carburetor, muscling, piling and throwing wood. The slow, powerful ram of the splitter very efficiently did in moments what it would take me several good whacks to accomplish. Fresh new stacks of neat firewood soon ringed my driveway, my feeling of wealth renewed. The snow could come now and I would be ready, warm and happy burning my collection, already anticipating ways to collect more next year.
It’s been a year now since I had my wood stove installed. Because of the stove’s craving and my obsession, firewood has changed my life. I have met new neighbors, acquired a whole new social life and muscles I would have never expected, learned more about the woods and the machines that tame it, and gone into winter warm and snug in front of my little stove. IMG_4501

Thanks for reading this – I hope you enjoyed it! Cindy

Written in the Woods

I moved to the woods for a reason.  I like the illusion of living in a different time, of being self-sufficient, a little apart from the rest of the world.  I heat with a wood stove, I cook with cast iron, and grow, sometimes successfully, my own vegetables.   When the electricity goes out or the well isn’t working, I ponder the obvious questions.   Could I give up electricity, my refrigerator?  Could I live without hot  running water?  Not a chance.  And so I live with the best of both worlds, compromising when I have to, loving the old ways when I can.
I make a concession every time I turn on my little red laptop.  I can’t deny its convenience for writing.  Cut and paste, delete, spell check, synonym check,  prints neatly.  I’ve come to depend on it.  It takes cares of all my carefully thought-out words and  keeps them safely organized.  But my preferred method is a tablet and pen.  I’ll find some lovely spot open to the sky and snatch the bits of inspiration that float my way.   I’ve carried my tablet hiking, camping, and on vacation to the coast.  It’s been to ghost towns and old homesteads.  I’ve filled lines of it on planes and ferries and in rental cars.  When I later transfer my scrawled words to a computer file, I have my original paper as a treasured souvenir.
Luckily for me I have a tiny piece of Montana woods with enough room to run my dogs.   The dogs, the sky, the wildlife that pass through, and the trees themselves have sparked stories that I must write.  There are three benches scattered throughout the trees.   Sometimes rather than walking with the dogs, I’ll pick a bench and jot down fresh ideas while they play.   At some point, about four years ago, I had an idea for a book, and now, after many walks, lots of jotting, lots of research, and hours of letting my imagination have its way, I have a book that’s almost done.    It’s about a woman in the West, of course.  A brave, adventurous, resilient woman.  It’s 1907 and she heads to Idaho from Boston with her little towheaded son, traveling alone after her husband, a doctor, was killed in an accident.  She is the nurse who will be taking over the medical responsibilities at an Indian School on the Nez Perce Reservation.   It’s a new challenge for both of them, new landscapes, new cultures, new opportunities.   As with most stories, there is conflict, love, loss, and sometimes redemption.   Hopefully I’ve made it historically correct for a region noted for vast forests, prosperous mining, steam trains, and everything we love about the West!  I’m calling it The Sparrow’s Choice, and I’ll keep you posted on its progress!!!      Cindy Doll